Lifes too short to even care at all

i want to go back in time to when i was nothig more than an ugly little fat girl who didnt have any friends and didnt care what i looked like. i was such a genuinely good person. i may not have had friends but everyone knew id be a girl who could change the world. thats what my momma always said. it broke my heart the other day when she told me that im not even remotely as good of a person as i used to be, she told me i used to have the best intentions, i was a little sweetheart who cared about the enviroment. i was a little vegetarian, who had her mind set on changing the world. what the fuck happened? i need to go back. maybe not the fat part, but i wanna go back and be that girl that knew she was gonna change the world someday. i know i can, i just need to quit being so self-centered….